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Depression Again (6)

I have been asked several times about the symptoms associated with my affliction. I think for many, there is the assumption, that depression is just a severe case of feeling low in spirits. That would be a reasonable inference from the term “depression”. Given that to be the case “depression” is a little bit of a misnomer and does not fully reflect the totality of the experience.  I will first seek to give the overall perspective and then look at detailed symptoms.

Overall.

  • “I can’t cope” is a phrase that embraces much of the experience.
  • Not functioning properly.
  • Life feels like walking through sludge. Everything is heavy going.
  • Overwhelmed by things.

Details

  • Cold hands and cold feet.
  • Panic attacks.
  • Tight chest.
  • Seizures in chest region.
  • Reduced appetite.
  • A mind that goes looking for worries.
  • An inability to properly process those anxieties.
  • Lack of / disturbed sleep.
  • Episodes of sensing darkness in my being.
  • Generally “on edge”. Thinking that if certain things happen then I won’t be able to cope.
  • Claustrophobia (on occasions) in confined spaces.
  • The accomplishing of everyday activities becomes hard.
  • Body getting hot and sweaty.
  • Burning sensation in chest.
  • “Anxious” stomach.
  • Feeling light-headed, although that may have been due to medication.
  • Sensitive to other people feeling I am acting in an odd way.

All of these detailed symptoms have not been there all the time, but there has been some manifestation of them. I don’t want to exaggerate the severity of them, but they would be a part of the experience. No doubt, others who suffer depression have differing experiences, but I relate what I have been through thus far, in my recent affliction.

I heard second-hand of a depression sufferer saying on the radio, that she wishes that non-depression sufferers could just experience depression for fifteen minutes, so they could know something of what it is like. It was an interesting observation. The experience of depression can be so painful.

As I write this I feel somewhat improved, but still with someway to go. Some of the pain still seems very close in terms of experience and time.

So much to learn. Thank you Lord for recent relief. Thanks to all who have prayed and shown interest.

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